Hardfeelings.
I think before you open up to someone you always feel scared that once they see all the stuff you don’t like about yourself.
All the things you’re insecure about, that they won’t like you anymore and when someone sees those things and loves you not only in spite of them.
But because of them it makes you feel truly seen for who you are and loved for who you are too.
I don’t stay mad long if you hurt my feelings I can forgive you without an apology, so I won’t carry that pain or emotion into my next hour. If it won’t matter in 10 years there’s no point in being mad for 10 hours.
Today I decided to forgive my past so that I can lay my pain to rest. If you don’t forgive people, your emotions weigh your heart heavy. My heart is still half full over people, I’m trading forgiveness for peace.
I’ve been so hurt and unable to forgive the ones who hurt me. I’m letting that pain control my mind, my heart and my emotions deep down I know who I am, I know how pure my heart is.
Once I embraced my emotions I was able to forgive everyone and let the pain go.
I choose to forgive. I no longer want to hold any pain, resentment or traumatic memories close to my heart.
I let them all go, then watch as the emotions transform within me through God’s divine alchemy.
To those who’ve done me wrong, consumed my emotions and brought negativity in my life even if you aren’t sorry I forgive you.
To the people I’ve caused pain, frustration, and anger to, from the bottom of my heart I sincerely apologize.
I have lost all of my good emotions, I have forgotten what kindness and love feels like, so forgive me if I only know pain.
I’m incredibly good at hiding my emotions and not letting it affect my daily life, but I’m terrible at forgetting or coping with them.
You will forget and forgive, but I will always feel the pain of what happened.
Peace.
We all deserve peace of mind.
— Oliver Schofield-Tydalé
